Saturday 22 October 2011

The things we say

It never ceases to amaze me the lengths some people will go to in order to hurt someone else. The little things people say doesn't bother them, then BAM! and argument arises and it's these little things they bitch and moan about. Why say it doesn't both you if you're only going to use it as ammo in the next screaming match? I just wish people could be honest in the first place, if it's an issue then say so. Don't pretend 99% of the time and then bring it up when you aren't getting your own way.

I'm not perfect - far from it actually. Ask anyone who knows me. I try to do the right thing the majority of the time, i try to keep others happy but it's not always good enough. Just like everyone else, there's times when i fail and i get things wrong. But for goodness sake, don't bring my kids into it. They're young and still learning about life, boundaries, rules and the like. I try my best with them, at least i hope i do, but they too fall short of perfection. Maybe people just know that saying something horrible about them is going to push all the right buttons to get me in a bad mood. It's not something i can just let go of easily.

It's amazing though, the things that are brought up in an argument. That's when the truth seems to really come out. I don't understand the point of beating around the bush the majority of the time, only to lash out about something later on. I don't know there's an issue unless someone tells me, and it's not my fault if i'm not aware of any such issue without having been told prior to some petty disagreement.

For today, i'm over it! I'm not going to pretend it didn't hurt or that i'm not angry. I'm going to keep to myself and hopefully stay out of trouble. My fingers are crossed anyway.