Random attractive body parts

i got to thinking the other day about different body parts we find attractive in the opposite sex. Some like nice butts, pretty eyes, broad shoulders, feet and even a smile. Whilst i think those things are nice the one body part that definitely seals the deal for me is hands and forearms. I know, it doesn't get much more random than that. I'm attracted to masculine hands, not the soft girly hands some guys have. Its generally the first thing i look at when I'm interested in a guy. Don't get me wrong, I've been out with a 'Mr Girly Hands' before but everything about him was the complete opposite of my 'type' - He was skinny, short and a mamas boy. So anyway when i first met Matt i definitely checked his arms out and fell in love. Ok Maybe not that quickly but seriously He has the sexiest forearms and very masculine hands. Not to mention his gorgeous skin colour. The other day i was watching him drive, one hand on the steering wheel and asked myself How i got so Damn lucky. I'm still in love with those hands, probably even more so now after 6mths. I know I'm pretty random but arms and Hands are what does it for me.

After all this time

I had the best day catching up with some amazing people. I was so excited seeing my fantastic friend from school. I feel like I've missed out on so much in her life. We were inseparable at school and lost touch for 11yrs. Today seeing her wedding photos and How gorgeous she looked i felt a little sad i missed out on all this time as friends. She's still so bubbly and as beautiful as ever. I can't wait til we get a chance to catch up for longer. We also caught up with my mums great friend from just as many years ago and saw her son all grown up into a young man. Boy time flies. It's amazing How much has happened. It was great to remember all the crazy times we had together and laugh more than i think we have in years. Most enjoyable of all was being able to have Matt there with me. After nearly 2wks apart it was so good to see him - so good, words just don't begin to describe it. Even He does think I'm quite simple sometimes, when i finally catch onto something we've been talking bout for hours. Its a good thing He loves me, even at moments like these. I hate that the day is over and Its time to sleep and say goodbye tomorrow. I wish i could stay around these amazing people. Maybe one day soon.

Butterflies

Tomorrow the kids and i are taking a road trip with my mum to catch up with an old friend. I'm hoping to get a chance to see my best friend from like 12yrs ago so I'm pretty darn excited. But i gotta say, even more so i can't wait to see my man again. Its been nearly 2wks and although Thats not long to some, it's the longest we've gone without seeing Each other. I've had butterflies in my stomach since this afternoon when i knew i was going on this roadtrip. It's just like when we first got together and my stomach would seriously be in knots when i knew He was coming to see me. I'm so excited, nervous and happy. I never thought i could miss someone so much. Bring on tomorrow i say, even with the 4am wake up and the freezing cold temp outside at that time of the morning. I better go get my beauty sleep, I'll need it for tomorrow 8-D

kids

It seems like one of "them" days at my house this afternoon. Kailee gets home from school in a very hormonal mood. Seems some of her friends are being mean to her at school and she's in a crying mood with lots of attitude. Life must seem so hard as a 6yo. If Its not the backchatting it's the attitude Whenever she's asked to do something. I dread the whole puberty and teenage years. I remember just How awful i was as a kid, i can only imagine what's in store for me. Xavier isn't much better He likes to get into anything no matter How many times He's told not to or given a smack. He likes to play rough (just like any normal boy) though it usually includes hitting his sister with anything hard like the television remote or his Plastic cricket bat. I'm amazed kailee doesn't have more bruises. It's no wonder I'm counting down the hours and minutes until they go to bed and i get some peace and quiet. It's just a shame all i do is clean or want to go straight to bed. Such is life.

How did I get here?

No, i'm not about to start a "birds and the bees" lesson. Thank heavens, i hear you all saying. At the beginning of this year i thought my life was perfect, i had 2 amazing kids and i was happily single. I really had no desire to meet anyone who would interrupt our little family environment. Any guy who expressed an interest in a relationship was swiftly turned down, i just wasn't ready and didn't want anything more than a friendship. I don't know What changed the day i started talking to Matt though. I'd already told my friend who introduced us that i definitely didn't want a relationship so everyone knew where i stood in my opinion of meeting a potential new boyfriend. The more texts were sent between Matt and i, the more i could subconsciously see my guard coming down, though ever so slowly. I felt surprisingly relaxed about meeting him in person after texting one another for a week or more. I'll never forget the minute i opened the door and saw him standing there. My heart did backflips. His photos i'd seen just didn't do him justice. He was (and still is) HOT!! I remember just looking at him while we Chatted and thinking "this guy is way too amazing to want to be with me". Not only was He sexy but He was down to earth and made me laugh. When He went home i knew it'd never become of anything, i have alot of baggage to bring to a relationship - 2 kids and a scarred heart from being broken more than once. Boy was i surprised when He messaged me right after He left and said He was more than keen for something more between us. I could've died. It seemed the whole idea of wanting to stay single was well and truly thrown out the window. He was all i could think about, screw being single, i wanted to be with him.

Fast forward 6mths and i couldn't be any happier. I have the most incredible man in my life who i love more and more Each day. He's amazing with the kids and they love him to bits. I can't imagine my life without him and while i didn't think i'd meet anyone who'd rock my world, He proved me wrong! I'm forever grateful to that one special friend who took the chance on introducing us even when i was so against the idea. I still need to pinch myself somedays to be sure I'm not living some fantastic dream. Now we have so much to look forward to together. The possibilities are endless, we'll drive Each other crazy and look back one day on these times we struggled to hold it together and smile cuz it all worked out. I hate being apart so much but i know soon enough we'll be back living in the same town. We'll only come away from these tough times and be more in love and stronger than ever. So here's to the days when i can't escape his snoring, and have an extra person to run around after. I can't wait.

My heart

My heart aches for you, for you to be here with me right now. The love i have for you is so strong sometimes i don't know How to handle it. I feel like if i don't tell you enough just How much you mean to me my heart may explode. I would do everything within my being to make you see just How much you mean to me. I can't tell you or show you enough how important you are in my life. Being with you fills this emptiness my life had before i knew you. Now you're not here that emptiness starts to reappear. I don't want it, i only want you. I want to feel safe in your arms and i want us to be a family again. I want you home here with me. I miss you more than you could ever imagine and i love you even more than that!